Waves

Sometimes
Somehow
Life falls away
And it’s time 
It’s time

I want to say something
And I want to say it with someone else
So here we are
Thanks for coming to listen

I’ve found that I’m not really in control
And I really try to be
But I’m happiest when
I try not to be in control

But do I deserve it
Have I completed my duties 
And have I earned this moment
Of no control


The music plays and I feel
The rain falls 
My life swirls around me and my head tries to find a calm eddy

If all existence around me is waves
and it is
And two waves in synchronous motion in our infinite world are likely enough
And that is what I live 
a likely but improbable synchronicity
Then. . .

If our seemingly ordered progression through life
Is the rise and fall of waves in motion
And my choices are the luxury of my consciousness
My rationalization a glimpse of the waves to come
My choice comes at the moment of my understanding of how it will go
Then. . .

If all I seek is what I will have
Then all I fear is. . . 

The rain drops fall
And the pattern of ripples is expected
And incomprehensible

I know what will happen, but I don’t know how it will be

by Evan Carroll, 6/17/2023

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